In the dark alleyway where hardly anyone notice it existence, a figure decided to drop by with a tiny delicate 'gift' at dark place, unattended. The gift made no sound until the forth day when a middle aged man heard the cries.

He saw the gift on its own, bewildered, how could someone abandon a pure harmless little creature when they've have just brought into the world. He picked her up, looking at her eyes, he fell the sympathy...

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Four years old…

We have a party at our house today. I hate it. Father told me to wear a proper dress but I don't want to. I want to wear just like Bill, Tom, Georg and Gustav. They got to wear suits. The dress made me feel like a girly girl, that's what Tom had said. He laughed at me. Bill, Georg and Gustav said it looks lovely on me. I know they're lying.

Georg the eldest, his ten years old, Gustav is nine, Bill and Tom is eight. They're all big but that won't stop me to be friends with them, especially Bill, he often plays with me. I really like it and that's why I decided secretly that Bill is the best brother I could ever wish for.

Father told us to play at the garden because we've disturbed our guests (they're all really posh in their dresses and tux). They wouldn't care slightly about us even though we're Father's children. They looked at us as dirty little things. I don't like that but I didn't tell anyone except for Bill.

As we got out from our house Georg asks "Was sollen wir heute spielen?" as we're all walking towards the water fountain. "Ich weiß nicht" Tom shrugged. "Cops and Robbers?" asked Gustav. They're all agreed with each other, I don't. So I've refused to play but Tom said we're all gonna play 'Cops and robbers' or else I'll be left alone.

I was running away from Tom, it's his turn. I ran and ran until I tripped down because of the slippery surface that the water fountain has made. I can feel the hot liquid running down from my forehead. I reached to feel it with my fingers. It was blood. I screamed the hell out as I can.

"Oh my God! She's bleeding!" shrieked Tom. The other three came running down to us. Bill grabbed hold of me and looked at my forehead. He took out his handkerchief from his pocket and wipes the blood off my face. I hissed all though he tried his best to do it slowly. He does care about me a lot than any of them. He smiled at me slightly as I watched him clean of the cut on my forehead.

"We've got to get her to Father before anything turns out wrongly" murmured Gustav. He help me to get up, I clean off the dirt that get on my dress. But I stumble, my knees are getting weak and my vision blurred. "Du bist ok?" asked Georg, slightly worried. So I said "Nein, Ich bin nicht".

Georg has to carry my all the way from the garden to our house, it's a long way to get there. Georg comforted me and told me to stop crying or I'll look silly and people would laugh. So I stopped. I could hear Tom saying sorry to me over and over again.

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Ten years old…..

It's my birthday today and Father supposed to come back hours ago but he didn't. I was already in my best clothes the Claire had laid for me. Claire is our au pair, the new au pair. She told me to wear a dress but I told her I don't want to despite the last six years accident by the water fountain in the garden. It was clearly Tom's fault but I didn't blame that on him, instead I lied to Father so that Tom wouldn't get told off.

Father is always a busy guy. He's a professor and he always gone out for days but that usual for me. I've got Bill, Tom, Gustav and Georg. We lost Mother when I was still a baby. To be honest, I don't really recall any memory of me and Mother. It's really weird really. Georg said it's okay because I was still a baby but we're not allowed to discuss about Mother in front of Father, he'll be upset.

I got out from my bedroom. I went downstairs and found a couple of strangers talking to my brothers. They're all look rather gloomy but Bill's the worst. I can see him crying on Tom's shoulder.
"What's going on?" I asked but no one seems to notice. So I went near Bill to ask him but instead he hugged me and then Tom joined in. I was about to laugh but then it would be rude to spoil the mood.

"Es ist Father" said Tom, quietly. I'm not a German but I can understand and converse with them.

I still don't understand. What is going on really? What's wrong with Father? I saw Georg muttered something to Gustav while looking at me. Gustav then holds my hand and took me away from the room. "Gustav, was ist los?" I've asked quietly. He kneels down and whispered "Let's say, Father gone into a deep sleep". The word 'deep sleep' seems to have a dark meaning. "What…..?" my voice cracked, warm tears running down on my pale skin cheeks. I flung my arms around Gustav. "Oh Ivy" he said quietly.

Father can't be dead. Too weird because he's perfectly healthy this morning and he's hardly fall ill. I took a really slow walk with Gustav and joined Bill and Tom at the room I was in earlier.

I sobbed quietly with my head on Bill's shoulder. This is the worst birthday ever.